pieces of my life story

shooting stars

2010-05-07T17:17:00.002+08:00

It have been hard for us. Communication wise sucks big time. We have been fighting all time long. Shcool on the other hand have been great. I enjoy my time in class though i still could not in time. I really need to do something about my punctuality. Like seriously.
Well back to bf.. I really want things to work it out and 4 days ago was our 7 months. I love him.

moved

2010-04-03T00:25:00.001+08:00

I have officially move to tumblr.
Relink me instead.
http://exultantbitch.tumblr.com/

in need

2010-03-25T04:06:00.002+08:00

When at times everything is too hard to handle.
I need you.
P.S: I love you

On the other hand. I may be in need of change.
Link me up at : http://exultantbitch.tumblr.com/
I am updating both blog.

i need peace

2010-03-21T18:47:00.002+08:00

Kind of pissed of today. And having headache is just not helping me feeling ease. I wish i could stop time.

once

2010-03-17T05:38:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..
Its been 5 months that me and dear have been together. Hell yeah we have been through a lot and i really mean a lot. There will always be tears in our fights but still we would end it with a hug and we embracing each other. Neither of us is giving up this love for some dumb reason.
No relationship is easy and i am telling you all that even i am struggling at times. However most important of all, i believe all this fights are worth it. Our love have became stronger then before and and us loving each other much more.
On the other hand i am really missing my girls. I really do hope to meet you guys soon all my lovelies. I think that i really need to talk to you guys.. Love you girls.

For my love

2010-02-23T03:53:00.002+08:00

**Those mushy moments.**Hey there love...

Do you remember back then when we were just friends? Hahah. Yes, I could still remember how much you hate it when i get all so noisy. You will show me those irritated face and ask me to keep quiet and call me an irritating person. Back then i would keep quiet but only for awhile as i know i can't keep my mouth shut for long.
I still remember that you told me a few weeks ago that how much you can't stand me back then when we were friends. I know i could be a pain in the ass at times. Okay maybe all the time.
Then suddenly, somehow our bond just became stronger. Yeah somewhere between those bickering and disturbing each other i fall for you but i just have this in me saying that it's dumb for me to like you. Like seriously, i don't think that you would even like me back.
Then on 30th September you let out your feelings through sms. To be honest i really do think that you and the guys are playing pranks on me (-.-) and i didn't know how to react. Then the next day we text again and i am sure you are not playing any prank on me. *phew* Its seems fast from how a simple text could change to a phone call and then to meet ups. You could not believe how shaky i was to meet you for the first time as in just us, only us together.. You get me??
Deep inside i am really glad that you made that move and you send me that particular text which i still keep till now. Its wonderful being with you and i am sure there will be loads of bumps in our road ahead but i believe our love is strong enough to go through everything together.
Yes there may be times when i disappoint you and really hurt you bad enough but like what i always say, this feeling i felt for you is too strong that it makes me feel alive whenever i am down. And for that i thank you my love. Thank you for everything. Thanks for all the sacrifices you have made, thanks for all the love you have been showering me with and thanks for the endless smile that you have been making me. Thank you for all the patience and lastly, thank you for loving me.
And by the way love, i will still be that irritating girl that you can't stand back then. I will still continue shouting when i feel like it and no matter what items you stuff in my mouth when i started shouting, i will never get tired of shouting just to show how much excited and happy i am when i am spending time with you.
I love you Putra Shahley Bin Yusa.

Pictures

2010-02-23T00:36:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..
Love is asleep and i really miss him. I just love how we could laugh at each other dumb acts without getting bored of each other. Ouh well.. I am kind of lazy to talk now. So enjoy the pics people. :)
Take care and rock on!

shake

2010-02-16T14:39:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..
I will be going out later on. Me and love is going swimming. Yeah!!! Okay bye people.
Take care and rock on!

out

2010-02-13T19:49:00.001+08:00

I would really want to capture the beauty of the world.
Now who is with me?

uh-huh

2010-02-05T15:30:00.001+08:00

lights guiding me home

2010-02-02T16:42:00.001+08:00

I love observing people. I would always look and learn them or try to learn what is happening to them at that moment of time. However whenever I am observing a family, I would get upset. I always hope that I have that kind of family. But then again, I guess everything do happen for a reason and thus making me now a much independent young lady.

I was in secondary one when my dad passed away and since then everything change. Mom gets upset easily and siblings are all just not helping. Being the child that is close to her dad, makes me really miss him at times. Even till now especially when I noticed daughters holding their fathers hand and creating those bonds.

Well now I believe I am much a mature person compared to last time where I would get upset over small things. Now I tend to look at life more seriously and appreciate every seconds of it. My family bonding is now better and I am grateful that at least everything was great. Though at times life could be rough and family members would tend to shout at each other, still we are holding on together as we know we all need each other.

Whenever I miss my dad, I am not afraid to cry it out and just share to people that I miss my dad. On the brighter side I am learning things about life. Such as appreciating every moment spent, love every single moment when we are with our love ones and never take things for granted. I always believe that I could still my dad proud by achieving my dream and be a successful person in life.

I love my dad.

boohoohoo

2010-01-30T17:06:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..
Early in the morning mom shouted at me. So there goes my plan for going out. Sorry love for not being able to spend the time with you today.. Well we will meet tomorrow k dear..
I love you.

done

2010-01-27T15:48:00.001+08:00

Another day...
Another time..

everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I am done~

fuck you

2010-01-26T16:28:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates.
I am not sure why but i just feel stressed up. I am having fever and this freaking headache wont go away. I am still in class when all is already home. I am even done with all of my work and now i am just blasting loud music to my ear. I do not have any mood and whats worst is that i am having my UT3 already next SATURDAY..
Who the fucks do their exam on a freaking Saturday. WTF are they thinking? To think back about it, i am freaking upset and pissed of. Damn i am having this negative aura around me.
Ugh! Fuck it people.

random love

2010-01-25T22:27:00.002+08:00

I love my boyfriend. Be jealous that i have a sweet boyfriend. hahha!

2010-01-12T12:12:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates.
You guys have no idea how much i love this boy of mine. The greatest and the best. I could not ask for more people. I really love him madly!

I don't wish to be everything to you, but I would like to be something to you.

the couple that fights the most is the one most in love. it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. when you stop fighting it means you stopped caring~

i love u dear like a body needs a heart dont be scared about
the future i know there will be some fights ahead but remember
that we have each other to hold on to and each other to lead on. im
sorry if i say anything wrong or do anything wrong to you cos
deep deep in my heart there is nothing but only you

if I know what love is, it is because of you

Something that he sent to me. aww~~ :)
Aite people! Take care and rock on!

starstruck

2009-12-23T23:53:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates...
Kite flying again. I know........... Its like as if me and love have nothing better to do. But hey! Its fun okay~ And btw bro is the one who really wanted to do this. He have been bugging me for kite flying. So yeah went up straight to Punggol and there you go. But hell yeah we bought a new bigger kite.. The wind was great just now. And hell yeah it flew. though not as high. Well at least an improvement though.
So everything is fine now between me and love i guess. Still i know there will still be something that is disturbing us and i know he would have a hard time trusting me all over again. Hais.. I really do love you dear. If only there are words that could really describe how much i love you. Honestly i have no idea how to express it either with words or actions. If only you could really read whats in my mind.
Anyway i am stuck at home alone now. I am really bored and seriously have no idea what to do. There is nothing on TV and i am out of ideas on what to watch on youtube. I guess i will start on my online movie for now. At least there is something that take away the boredom off while waiting for love to call.. I bet he is eating right now. hahha! Confirm shit plus chop!
So i guess i am done for now. Take care and rock on people. XOXO

swim the ocean for you

2009-12-22T14:29:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..
Loads of things have been happening right now in life. But firstly i really do miss my bitches. I really do need them now. And i mean all of them at once.. Seriously its been ages that i meet them. And i wonder if they think about me.. Sad story sia.... Fact.
Well on the other hand.. me and love have been facing loads of stuff. Especially yesterday night. I am really sorry my dear. I know i am guilty and i shouldn't have did that to you. Please forgive me. I really do love you dear and would not want this to end. I did not know what the hell i was thinking that night. I should have told you that night instead of just leaving you clueless about my whereabouts.
Enough said. So here what we have been doing all these while. Avatar 3D on Monday the 21st. It was hell of a show. Worth every single cent of your money. Love it love it love it loads! After watching movie we walked around Clark Quey.
On the 17th we wet kite flying. It was cute how love was angry at the kite when it doesn't want to fly high. He even shouted at the kite. My dumb dumb. I guess next time if we were to fly kite again, i would make sure its the biggest kite and would easily fly. Or maybe i should just cast a spell on the kite just to make it fly even when there is no wind. heh.
On the 15th was just a simple outing. Went out with love and bro. Since bro really want to sheesha, we went straight to Arab street. Loads of things happen on that day. Ouh and my cousin, Khairul, join us. We played true or dare. The most epic one would be when my brother was dared.
Bro: (walking in the 7-eleven store with a pack of ice) Uncle! is these cold?? *pointing to the ice*
Uncle: Of course lah.
Bro: Is it cold??
Uncle: Of course lah CB!
We ran out from the 7-eleven laughing our ass off. HAHHAHAAH!!!
Well i guess now J-CO is our love. Me and love really love eating J-CO. So don't be shock if you see me gaining weight. Okay i guess this post if a bit to lengthy. I love you guys all.
Take care and rock on! XOXO

food

2009-12-13T14:42:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates.

Its Sunday and i am not sure on what to do today. I really wanna go out but i am just not sure with who. Baby is working today but he will end work soon. I wanna eat Laksa at Qiji later on. And i hope baby would want to follow me. Hehehe.
I get to meet love yesterday. And since both of us have this perangai gemok, we travel all the way to Beach Rd just to eat the Nasi Ayam there. Like seriously, imagine how irritating it is that we don't mind travelling that far just so we get to eat the nices dish. And now i believe i know why my body weight is increasing. hhehe.
Well tomorrow is my last day of school then it will be holiday for me. Yahoo!!
*gelek-gelek lah people*
But i really wanna go get a job. I wanna have money and would not want to rot at home alone and not knowing what to do. Like seriously, i will get bored and start doing nonsense stuff.
Weell i guess i should end here. I wanna go bathe. hahha!
XOXO people. Take care and rock on!

two is better than one

2009-12-11T15:10:00.003+08:00

Hey there lovelies..

Now in class and yeah having chemistry. I am so excited for later. I will be meeting up all my primary school mates. wee~ Its been years since we meet and chill together. I believe now all are mature already and hmm i dunnoe.. change maybe?

Another thing i am excited about is to meet up with dear tomorrow. I really hope to get to meet love tomorrow. Also i am missing my bitches. I am sorry that i cant meet you guys yesterday. I cant make it due to me mom.

I am really tired now though. I want to sleep and sleep and more sleep. hahah! I am crapping again. I know. I am sorry people. I shall shut up.

Take care and rock on people! XOXO

LOVE

2009-12-09T14:11:00.007+08:00

Hey there mates..

Love have been the best. Even though we are having a hard time contacting each other due to him losing his HP and also already started working, we could still meet up. Well either one would have to sacrifice though.

So after not meeting and contacting each other for 4 days(because i go KL) we meet up. And seriously i really do miss him. Anyway KL was great. Shopping but not much. Celebrate my bdae in the car on our way home. So yeah.. Cousins have been the best. They would always be there and listen to each other problems and share jokes with each other. Anyway when i reach home from the KL trip, i checked my FB and there was 2 messages from love. Reading them just make me realize why i fall in love with him and why we are still in love with each other even if we do have a tiffs at times.

If things just get too hard, why dont you grab this softer part of me, a part pulsing for something true, a heart pulsing for you.

I came here with a load
and it feels so much lighter, now I've met you
and honey you should know, that I could never go on without you

I am so in love with this boy.

Anyway back to the meet up, we really have a great time. He was the best and i am thankful to know him.

Okay now i am done with my mushiness. So yeah will have a proper update soon. So yeah take care people. XOXO. Rock on!

L.O.V.E

2009-12-03T15:27:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..
I would want to make this blog alive. :)

So now in class. I feel like some dumb dumb. Seriously. I don't know what the hell i was blabbering about in class during presentation. But whatever it is, i am excited for tomorrow. I will be off to Kuala Lumpur.. I can't wait but however, i will be missing Sab's birthday and also i will not get to meet love for 4 days. I will be back home on the 7 night i guess.
Now love are done with school and are now working his ass off. And by the time he reached home, he would be all tired. I will miss him liow~
Still i miss my bitches too. Darn i am missing loads of people right now~
I guess i shall stop for now. Really hope to get to meet love later.
XOXO people

MIA

2009-12-02T13:17:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..
I know i have been neglecting my blog for quite a long time already. I am so sorry. Hahaha! Well basically i have been busy with school and wedding and all. Check out my FB to look for more pics.
So honestly i have been missing all my bitches. Its been ages that we have not sit and talked. I really do miss their jokes and all. Do you guys know how much i love you guys? hehe. You guys have always been the best of the best and i am thankful to have friends like you bitches though at times you guys can be such a pain in the ass. hehe.
Love have always been the best. Always been there for me and never fail to make me smile. Its a blessing that i know him and be friends and now we are together. hehe. Though there are our ups and downs, still we are going strong. Now tell me which relationship does not have fights? Misunderstanding have caused us to quarel over small stuff such as my PMS. heheh. For those who knows me well enough would know about my PMS :)
So yeah now i am in class and freaking clueless on today problem. I am such a sleepyhead now a days and i don't like it. I am always sleepy and tired. Sucks sia. Well today genetics sucks. I have always hate genetics and have never liked the module. Ouh.. whatver~

♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-11-17T01:24:00.002+08:00

The reason why i love him so much.
His randomness will never fail to make me laugh.

bad romance

2009-11-16T08:00:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates.
Seriously i am having sleepless nights. Having the thoughts of PP presentation on this coming 21st, i am just so freaking nervous. And whats worst, i am still not done yet with the bloody PP poster. Like fukaneneh.
On another hand, it is 0807am and i am still not asleep yet. Will be meeting love later but howwever i have still yet to see my bitches. I really miss them like how much i miss the sunshine during these monsoon season. Okay CRAP! hahah. But seriously sey.. All of us are busy with projects and all. Okay not all of us. HAHAHA! THEM!. boo!!
On another note i am hooked to LAdy Gaga - Bad Romance. hahaha!

Enjoy mates~
Ouh here something annoying that was done during class.

Well yeah. Take care and rock on!

♥♥

2009-11-13T15:24:00.001+08:00

There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

once again

2009-11-12T12:31:00.002+08:00

“I am one of those unhappy persons who inspire bores to the greatest flights of art.”
- Dame Edith Sitwell

Loving shahley yusa

2009-11-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates.

Like at last after i dunnoe how many days, i get to meet my dear. I am so freaking sexcited that i get to meet love. Well the day was start with school. So basically i went to travel to woodland just for a half an hour test. Like so wth! Well anyway glad that actually the test was great fine whatever~

After test got to wait for love in woodland interchange as he is fetching me. hehe. I suker lah sangat. hehe. Then therre he goes complaining about his butt having cramp and such.
Love: Kaki i tiba cramp sey when dalam bus~
(My leg went cramp all of a sudden sey~)
Like seriously.. So kental sey my love. hehe. So since i would not want him butt to get cramp again, we walked around woodland till we get bored with it. Hahah. So basically went back to tamp and then off to changi. Just because someone was craving for Nasi Lemak. -.- After alll the prangai gemok, we chilled at changi and then off back home.

On our way back home, dear is really annoying. Like seriously he started making fun of me and mimicking me all the way. So much for layaning me eh~ I am not your bahan okay love~ hahaha! Gemok btol~

Still no matter how irritating he may be, i really do love him and his radomness. Like when i asked him this question.
Me: Dear, describe me in one word?
Love: Smile.
Seriously i went blank. hahha! WTH!!! What does smile got to do with me. hahha! But whatever it is, his randomness never fails to make me smile and fall for him all over again. ehem! mushy stuff. tiong~ Okay enough crapping. Take care rock on people.

Aunty Yaya

2009-11-01T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates!
I am freaking excited that i at last my sis have give birth to a healthy baby girl. So yeah this baby is a halloween baby. Like seriously she is born on the 31st Oct. And hell yeah i am so loving this cutey pie. hehe
Don't you guys think that kids are just so adorable and innocent. With their cute face and chubby cheeks... Seriously i feel like biting them. Hahaha! They are just so adorable. I really do love kids like freaking seriously. hahha! Okay i shall stop now. heee.

sexcited

2009-10-31T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..
Seriously i am freaking excited right now. My sister will be giving birth to a baby girl tomorrow at 9am. Like seriously i am so freaking happy for having a new niece. Like wee~~ When i heard the news, i was like literally freaking happy and jumping around and all excited when in class. Like woots~ Gerek or what!! I really want to gelek right now.
On the other hand, i really miss Shahley Yusa. Hais.. Its been long since we met. Like seriously have a proper meet ups. Just now we only meet foor barely even an hour. Hais... I am missing him badly liow~
And also i miss my bitch. hehe.
Anyway love is so random right now. he iss trying to be the next shakespear or something. hahah!! Giving me all these funny quotes and stuff. Such a random boy. hahha! So full of surprises. Love him so lahh~~

Seriously, i am loving the new skin. hehe :)

major headache alert

2009-10-28T13:11:00.002+08:00

This head is spinning like one shithead. Like seriously i cant think straight and i am going crazy over genetics. Darn it man~ I miss love and i hope to meet him soon. I guess that will be on Friday~
You make me smile love and i love it :)

missing love

2009-10-26T04:26:00.001+08:00

I miss you my love~

♥|♥|♥|♥

2009-10-23T20:51:00.003+08:00

To my love :)

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine

I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I lost all hope, you showed me love (Boy you showed me love)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (Right on Time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)

I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take, the love that we make
I only share it with you (you, you, you,you)
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine

You came into my life sent from above (Came into my life, yeah yeah yeah)
When I lost all hope you showed me love (Boy You showed me love, uh huh)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (But boy your right on time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine, oh mine)

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow

I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

meet me halfway

2009-10-21T11:59:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates~

Tell me something i don't know please. Like something that got to do with genetics but whatever it is.. Somehow i don't give a fuck for today. I am happy to just get my D. hahha! Okay joking lah. But whatever lah eh~~ haha!

So love is working straight after school for today and yesterday. I really hope to see him tomorrow lah. Hehhe.. Like seriously i miss irritate him. Hehe. Okay sorry love. I will learn not to be sarcastic towards you again. No more harsh words and rude talk. hahah!..

Anyway i really wanna go zoo. love can bring me to zoo please? hehe. I would be really happy and like one happy kid if you bring me to zoo. hehee. wee~

Meeting the girls yesterday was the best. Did loads of catching up and its kinda hard for me to digest every thing. To see my them undergo loads of stuff was just heart breaking. Girls remember that i love you all aite babes. If you guys wanna talk about anything just give me a call aite dearest. I don't like seeing all my bitches keeping their sorrowness alone. So yeah baby. Love you all.

Okay i shall stop talking nonsense. Kinda bored actually lah. haha!
Take care and rock on!

dreading for school

2009-10-13T10:50:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well as you guys know that i am now in class and yeah late as usual.. But not that really late okay. I am just like a few minutes late. hahha! Ouh well annyway today i am having Chemistry II module. Seriously i hate chemistry and i am not sure why i take this module. Like seriously i am not sure why. But the thing is i just hope that i could just get over and done with soon. haha! Well i guess i got to tahan for another 14 weeks. Darn it man!

Like seriously my team mates are like talking about DNA and doing their research and all. I seriously felt lost. I am like surfing the net. Facebooking, blogging and also at SSGFLEA. Hahahha! I know i should at least pay attention and start getting good grades. But the thing is i really hate Chemistry and my brain is just not working now. Ouh God please help me. Put in some facts in my brain please. Like seriouslyu for a moment i felt like a bimbo here when i am in class.

Now the facilitators are trying to kill me. She keep on asking me question and i could barely even answer any. Like seriously i am already lost and by she asking more question i am just so dead. Ouh well i don't know if i could even score well for my chem.. I am so dead.

Anyway, it was during meeting 3 that i notice i was not having chemistry II but instead molecular and cell biology. How dumb can i be. Like seriously.

After school i met up with Amira and hell yeah we had great time gossiping. hehe. Catch up on stuff and had our late lunch at McDonald. after much of sharing and laughing we head on to our separate ways and off to home. Seriously i am freaking tired. I was doing my evaluation when i fall asleep in front of the lappy all the way till 10.30pm. Prangai gemok giler~

So love is on his way home now and i cant wait to talk with him later on. heheh. *gelek-gelek* However on the other hand i kinda feel hungry now. hahha!

Okay bithces i am off now. Gonna watch my Avatar~ hahah! Take care and rock on!

with love

2009-10-13T02:24:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well i know that i should be sleeping now but the thing is, i just can't close my eyes and i am not tired at all. I am sure i am so gonna miss my bitchy boyfriend since he is schooling and working all the way till Thursday. I am also sure that he would be too tired to talk to me once he reach home. Ouh well.. Whatever it is, i guess we could still text and talk over the phone for awhile right~

My day was spend with love just now. It was great and yeah we watched (500) days of summer. Hell yeah it was a great show and seriously you guys should really watch it. Whenever i spend my time with love, it was all about bullying each other and having this mimicking session of each other. Like seriously he could really be such a pain in the ass at some point but yeah.. that's one thing that made us click instantly and yeah that is why i love him.

For those who is unsure how i get to know him.. Well we have known each other since secondary two and its kinda funny how things have made us closer. We started to have feelings to each other since last year. Well yes i do have feelings for him but not a deep kind of feeling.. And as for him, he just told me that he just started to like me and being around me. Well yeah. Every time during Raya we tend to get closer with each other and i guess that's how the feelings kinda bloom. At first i didn't expect anything as i really thought that there is no way that we are going to be together but i guess i expected wrongly. hehe. Like seriously i was freaking happy when he first told me he liked me.

And yeah like i say everything was seriously unexpected and even he told me that we are so random. Somehow i agree to that statement. hahah!

Well yeah i guess i should stop blabering for now. Take care and rock on people!

jump up that sofa

2009-10-03T04:08:00.003+08:00

To know what you told me was actually true made me the happiest girl on earth. Hahahah! Like seriously unexpected.
Okay enough. Well anyway was glad to meet Sabby baby just now. And yes i bought this cute PJ pants. ahha! And if the girls were to make a slumber party, i cant wait to wear that. heeh. But who cares i will wear it sooner or later.
School starting soon and i am so not ready for school. New classmates just sucks big time. Ouh please i dont want to go to school please.... hehe. Okay fine then i'll go to school but somehow not ready to make any friends. At least i am glad enough that Joe is in my class.. Like phew~
However still i am in need to shop for new clothes. hahha!
You don't have to envy us all aite..

boom boom boom

2009-09-30T14:34:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well yeah raya have been great for me. Like everything was going well. Went out with my mates was best. We had loads of fun and laughter. Bitching was great with the bitches. hahah! lol

Though the girls have trouble walking in their high heels.. Walking barefooted would never stop us from going to our mates house. And hell yeah i really do enjoy every single bits of it. Even the walking barefooted. hahha!

Anyway i think i am done for now. Gotta get get going. Need to meet my mom later liow.. hahah! Feel like going shopping. hehe :)

curious

2009-09-30T12:27:00.003+08:00

If what you told me yesterday was true, then i would be the happiest girl on earth. However if it is not then i would just be the girl full of disappointment.. Hmm...

daddy's little girl

2009-09-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

Missing him badly

no idea

2009-09-24T03:25:00.001+08:00

Err.. Okay.. I don't know~

tenot tenot

2009-09-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates.

Like seriously i am freaking bored right now. I am clueless on what i am supposed to do now. I am really bored right now. Darn it man! What should i do? Like seriously i am watching tv and nothing fun is on tv. Facebook is already plaiin boring for me already. There is nothing interesting for me to do now. And youtube... hmm.. I got no idea on what i should watch now. Well whatever.

Anyway yeah i've checked my GPA and i was glad that i passed my Sem 1 Year 2. Like seriously i am glad that i passed. Well though my grades are not that good. Its like Cs and C+ but seriously i am not expecting much since this semester i was just fooling around and not did not do anything at all. hehe. So yeahh.

Okay anyone wanna go out?? I am drop dead bored at home today.. Like seriously i wanna go out.. I feel like crying my hearts now. Like GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!! I WANNA GO OUT!!! Ouh god~~

Ouh well whatever i guess i should stop it for now. Or else i will be complaining my way through.. hhahha! So yeah take care and rock on mates!

toing

2009-09-21T15:57:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MATES!!!!

Love,
Surayah

rambling

2009-09-17T05:29:00.004+08:00

Sup people!

Hahaha! Pardon me for my crapness. I am still not asleep yet and its already 5.25am. hahah! Whatever lah eh~ So everything is kind of done for now. Just left with the kitchen and arranging back the furniture. My room is halfway done though. haha! I mean i still need to upload my pics and curtains and arrange my bears. hahha!

I am kind of bored right now. No idea on what to do. Well i think i am going to get my bathe and then read and off to sleep. Yeah that is kind of a good plan. Hahah! And tomorrow i need to go buy some stuff. Haiyoo~ Lazy liow~ How? hahha! Ouh yeah and i need to buy my contact lens. Darn it man~ Still i am not in the mood for raya though. hahah!

Ouh what the hell. I have no idea on what i am suppose to update since all i did was to rot at home. Just that yesterday someone made me pissed. Serious sey Fir.. Prangai gemok! Ish! haah! Whatever lah.. wanna see he sleeping?? Sumpah die step cute. haha! Sorry fir but just cant help it uh. heheh Dont be angry at me aite.
So yeah i guess i should stop for now. Hahaha! take care and rock on people!

missing

2009-09-12T01:09:00.003+08:00

Kadang-kala Allah sembunyi kan matahari,
Dia datang kan petir dan kilat.
Kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangnya matahari.
Rupa-rupanya Allah memberi kita pelangi.

Well yeah glad that i do have my rainbows always to cheer me up during the storm (:

reflection

2009-09-11T20:45:00.004+08:00

Loads of things are going through my mind and i am sure there are gonna be loads more sooner or later. As an average teenager, everything seems to be cruel around you. The world are just becoming cruel to you and then you just realise its how life is. You just have to live with it. Life won't always be as what we want it to be and we can't change the fact that it already happen. All we gotta do now is live with it. Throughout my 17 years of living i think i learn through the hard times. I lost my dad when i was at the stage when i really need him the most. I was at my growing stage moment.

Well whatever.. I guess it is better for me write it all down so at least i would feel ease and start eating again. I won't want to start the stop eating thingy again just because i am feeling down.

I am sure that people around us judge each other. And yes don't get me wrong but i do judge people too. Thus the reason why i am bringing this up. I may be contradicting here but well that's how we live.. Well that's one thing i am sure. We live in a contradicting world. Anyway back to my point. i was taken aback to be judge by people who barely even know me. Like seriously who the hell are you to judge me saying that i only entertain people that i am only close to and i have a lot of guys around me.

Firstly, let me get this straight to you. I am not good at starting conversation and i am quiet most of the time. You may see me being noisy and such but at which part of that sound is a conversation to you. Those are just noise that are coming out from my mouth. I only have my deep conversation when i am with my bitches and also my fuckers. Other then that i am just a noise. So yes i do have the right to only chat with the one that i am close with cause when i chat with you, i got no clue on what to say.

Secondly, i may have loads of guys or whatever you want to call it but the fact that i and them are only friends what makes you think that you could judge me? And also i know them longer then you do. Like seriously they don't even judge me and saying that i am always on the phone late at night with different guys. Like hello! The guys that i talked to on the phone at night is, Firdaus, who have always been there for me and been a friend of mine for a year. Next is Rusydi, who also listen to my problems and yes you may want to listen to my problems and all but which part of i am not comfortable sharing it with you don't you understand?? Then there are also Faruq and also Hilmi. But these two are very rare. So yeah..

Like freaking hell sia! I was pissed to be judge by you. do you even know that? Darn you.

Another thing was i really felt used. Somehow. It's like you are full of lies and hell yeah i guess you are. You can fake up stories and then come back to me saying that you are sorry and such. But deep inside you don't mean it at all.

Do you guys believe in giving second chances? Well i do till now. I have always believed in giving second chances to people as i believe people do change. Though friends have told me that it is not worth it at all as these people won't change. Well yeah i guess i am agreeing with them. I was freaking upset that people tend to abuse their chances that were given to them. They don't take it as an opportunity to be a better person but instead to use others for their own benefit. So is that how you repay people who gave you second chances and trying to trust you back all over again after you hurt her heart?

Well let me tell you straight now that you don't deserve any. Darn right you don't. Even if you cry with bloody tears in front of me. Hell no you don't. The reason is i am done with getting hurt by useless people when i know i deserve more than this. I deserve the respect from people just like how i gave my respect to others.

Ouh well.. I guess i should end now. Like seriously. Felt way better now at least. And yeah i kinda miss all my bitches now. I really do love them.. Like seriously.

believe

2009-09-05T08:46:00.005+08:00

Hey mates!

Its like 8.49am now and i am still not asleep. I have no idea why but this eyes have been open and are still awake. I know i should be asleep now as i would be going out to JB later and seriously i would be needing those energy. Not really sure what is in my mind now but however i am feeling nervous. About why still unsure. Still i will believe that one day everything will be okay. I am sure (:

To believe is to know that
every day is a new beginning.
Is to trust that miracles happen,
and dreams really do come true.
To believe is to see angels
dancing among the clouds,
To know the wonder of a stardust sky
and the wisdom of the man in the moon.
To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart,
The innocence of a child's eyes
and the beauty of an aging hand,
for it is through their teachings we learn to love.
To believe is to find the strength
and courage that lies within us
When it's time to pick up
the pieces and begin again.
To believe is to know
we are not alone,
That life is a gift
and this is our time to cherish it.
To believe is to know
that wonderful surprises are just
waiting to happen,
And all our hopes and dreams are within reach.
If only we believe.
Copyright © B.J. Morbitzer. All rights reserved.

lost

2009-09-04T22:23:00.002+08:00

I am lost and confuse.

I am in need of friends and love ones by my side.

I am speechless and blank in mind.

Can anyone tell me whats happpening?

As i was wondering alone,

Thinking about you.

I know that i could love you,

However i am sure that love will never be return back to me.

I don't have any idea what the hell i am crapping but i am just having this mix emotions. Not sure what it is about so don't ask. Hahaha. Okay fuck it. I am done. I will have a proper update soon. And i can't wait for tomorrow JB trip. So yeah.. Take care and rock on people.

sudden burst of emotions.

2009-08-30T03:37:00.007+08:00

Hey there mates..

So yeah holidays are up and i start my holiday by enjoying with my W56G bitches. Ouh yess all of them are bitches. Including the guys. hahha! But still i love them. So yeah we barbequed and was having so much fun. The food was great though i was like searching for food most of the time. Mind you people.. I am fasting okay~~ So i tend to be hungry -.- And yeah whatever people are all now commenting about me gaining weight. Blah blah blah.. Just so freaking irritating lah.
And 280922009 was Amira and Faruq 18 birthday. However this year was different. The girls didn't join the guys. Intead we went celebrate with us girls only. And i am glad we did. It is more like the girls reunion and hell yeah it was great. Everything was just perfect. Being with the girls will always make your frown turn upside down. They will always and forever will be my happy pills. Well yeah freaking glad that Mira was happy and like the mini celebration. hahha! The food was supperb. Though the service kinda sucks. And the balloon given to her. Wahh~ The look on her face was just priceless. She really look like a small kid. hahahha! Love you bitches. :)
So yesterday morning like around 2 am was kinda sucky for me. Lucky for me Fir was there to listen to my gramble and rumbling. Pitied him though cause it was like me having a fit. Like seriously he would think that suddenly i went crazy. I found this quote: I don't believe that life is supposed to make you feel good, or make you feel miserable either. Life is just supposed to make you feel. So i was like darn it man. What am i feeling now then. This anger is just pilling up slowly and seriously it's unhealthy. I am always upset at small things and the feeling just sucks big time.

Like seriously, if you are not serious about any feelings, then don't come and making up stories. All these fake story about you still have feelings towards me and such are just lame. I knew something wasnt right. And yes i was right. Like seriously don't leave me hanging cause i hate being left hanging and also leaving me in confusion is not funny. Saying that u like me and not even showing it is seriously making me confused. Or maybe you are the confuse one. I am sick and tired of being the one figuring out everything cause i prefer to be told straight in my face. I hate playing games and seriously it bore the hell out of me. So get this straight in your brain guys.. If you like that someone, show it. Actions always speak louder then words. Saying and giving empty promises is so not cool. They are just noise to the ears. Ughh!!

I guess i should stop blaberring for now. I should get ready for my pre-dawn meal. Well yeah take care and rock on people!

blabering

2009-08-24T04:27:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

Its like 4.30am and i am still up. Still studying and revising my rDNA tech module. Having my UT text later on at 2 and seriously i am only halfway prepare. My mind is having a major headache now and i am still wondering what time should i act start going to bed. Darn it man.. Fasting have been great so far. Well whatever. Just wish me luck for my test later on aite people. Take care and rock on!!

I noticed

2009-08-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates.

Well i am just sick of everything now. Sick of life, sick of people, sick of love, sick of making the effort. Just too tired to be the one who make the freaking effort. The one to text you and the one to find you. Why cant i just be the one chilling one side and be the one waiting for your text. Or maybe i should just let it be.. Hais. I donne guys.. You tell me that you would want to start a new but no efforts were made. Like seriously what the hell. I just dont understand people nowadays.

Sometimes i just felt that we human tends to ignore the ones that care for us but instead we care for those who would not care for us..

You people get what i am trying to say here?? hmm..

Friday was awesome. Okay maybe without the freaking chemistry paper which seriously made me lost for words when i read the bloody question. I was freaking blank and seriously just hope for the best i guess. The class had a bonding session by having breakfast toghether at McDonald. However after breakfast some went home. So yeah we slack around and decided to play soccer but since there are not enough people, we watched movie. Though half left us( me, SP, Jun Wei and Randal), we continued watching the movie. Watched Orphan. Freaking nice thriller and seriously the show could make me piss in my pants. I was grabbing Randal's leg all the way and seriously the thrill was supperb. The ending was great, storyline was great. Everything was great. In case you guys have no idea.. Here is the trailer. Hell yeah!

Anyway.. Today mark the first day of fasting month. And i would like to wish all Muslim a happy fasting month. Ouh well seriously one thing i love about fasting month isthat its the only time that we get to eat together as a family and i really do love it. I miss my dad sia.. Walauweii~ Suddenly so emo.. I guess i should shut up for now.

Take care and rock on people! And happy fasting mates!

fuck mofo

2009-08-18T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

Pretty fucked up now. Like seriously i just felt fucked up. Wont say why here as i rather make it more private for myself and the close ones.. Ouh well UT3 is up tomorrow. First paper would be microbiology. Was studying just now and yeah covered up half of the module already. 8 more slides to go and i am done for the day. Just hope that i would not have any problems sleeping today. Nothing great happen for today though and sorry Sab n Mira for backing out at last minute. I was busy doing my revision at school. Sorry darls.. I'll make it up to you people aite..

Well thats about today. I just feel like running and burn up all this angst in me. Darn it mann! Well anyway take care people and rock on.

littlest things do matter

2009-08-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

Pressure are pilling up. UT3 are just around the corner and PP still not done yet. I really miss my happy pills. I need the bitches. I just need to spend time with them. Someone told me that i've changed. I am moody nowadays and have always be stressed up. Maybe just because i am feeling really lethargic and yeah i do not know what is bothering me though. Ouh well i guess i should be fine in a few days time.. I guess.

After school went to watch District 9. Even though i was supposed to be studying for my upcoming UT, i went to watch the show. I find it kind of cool when the rest thinks that its a waste of time. The show was sad at some point and freaking gore too. Out of 5 i would rate 3.95. Hehehe. Would be better if you buy the CD or just watched it online though. But i guess its worth the $6. hehe.

Okay enough for now. Time to get my rest and to bed for school tomorrow. Gonna be a long day ahead for tomorrow. So yeah take care and rock on people!

square one

2009-08-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates...

Well yeah.. We meet up and he explained everything to me. He apologies and we are back to square 1 for now. He know i was holding back and he knew that i would have a hard time trusting him. But i would give him this opportunity to prove me wrong. Loads of things running through my mind just now and loads of questions we asked just now. Glad that he actually explained everything though most of the time my mind was wondering around. Ouh well like what he told me we gotta take the risk to know..

Anyway i am having this ear infection and i am unsure. My mom told me that its normal but my sister insisted on me going to the doctor. Even most of my friend are asking me to go see the doctor. well maybe i will. I am just afraid if they are going to cut off my ear. Then how? I don't want to. And my sis will say that i ear will look like those cats which have their ear being cut off. Thanks eh.. -.-

Okay i am now confuse doing lab. Microbio just irritates the hell out of me. So yeah take care and rock on!

loving this

2009-08-16T05:02:00.004+08:00

Goodbye
i woke up with a tear track on my face.
i forgot what i dreamt about.
but it must have been something about you.
im usually strong, i usually dont cry.
but nowadays it seems so hard.

chorus 1:
but i try,
i try to be what i used to be.
i try to be the man,
i try to do all i can.
i wish i could turn back the hands of time
and find out what went wrong,
but i know that is meant to be,
this is hard for me to say, but goodbye.

i cant seem to get a hold of myself.
cant even explain what goes on around me.
i know that i learned from all my mistakes.
but its too late to change and now its time to walk away

chorus 2:
so goodbye,
just know that this is hard for me.
but things just arent the same.
everytime i hear your name,
i wanna scream out loud,
i dont know what is left in me.
what we had is now a memory.
even though this is hard for me to say, this is goodbye.

it hurts to have to leave
but who am i to say that we arent meant to be
our love started with a hello
and ended with this goodbye and now... simply letting go [repeat]

back to chorus 2, then both chorus' together..

happy birthday sis

2009-08-16T01:34:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates!

Happy birthday to my dearest sister. So yeah she is now 23 years old people!! Still she thinks that she is 19 years old. hahha! Well anyway hope she love the celebration. May God always bless here and may she achieve all her future endeavour.

So had a mini celebration at home. Cupcakes is our birthday cake for her. And hell yeah she loves it. Ouh and we ordered Arnold chicken and i pitied the delivery man as he gets the wrong address. hahha!! He went to level 3 when instead my house was on the 9th level. Well still glad that everything went perfectly today. (:

To suddenly hear you saying that somehow made me confuse. Coming back to me really confuses me. Still i have this feelings towards you and yes i do miss you though. So what now.. Well guess time will tell but on the other hand i am glad somehow. Glad that he was back..

And darn this menses cramp are killing me. Like seriously it is so fucked up. Drinking warm water and even eating the panadol does not help me. Hais.. Now all i need is to rest and chill. So yeah people. Take care and rock on!

avatar

2009-08-12T18:25:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates..

Sitting at home not doing anything is not a good thing. Like seriously i should be studying/revising or instead start on my PP. Like how on earth am i going to finish my PP report which needs 2000 words to be done in 1 month time. Darn it man. Ouh well whatever. Enough of talking. Avatar will be up in a few minutes time. YES UH!!!

Ouh and talking about Avatar, it will be up soon in cinema and New Moon will on show this December. I think its on the 3rd but whatever. Still i would really want to watch it. Hell yeah i would really love to watch my dear Taylor Lautner. hehe.

Enough crapping. Take care and rock on mates! Avatar is now on OKTO!!!

hyper-active

2009-08-10T20:45:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates!!!

Today was spend greatly though it's short. Went to Noren's chalet and hell yeah the food was great mayne! Happy belated birthday noren!! See the ladybug on my back? That was our birthday present to her. We wanted to hid it from her so we hooked it on my back. hahha! So yeah the reason why we bought it was because her face was like semut (ants) and since there are no ants balloon, we just take any bug that was there. hahha! Cute sia the lady bug. Wakakak! Sab and me was being extra hyper today. Its just like we were back in secondary school and were jumping and shouting around like mad kids.

Sab: HYPER!

Me: ACTIVE!

Yeah i know we went mad suddenly and start to irritate Mira and Zul. wkakakka! Standard~

Though i said that i would not want to go out yesterday. I end up going out and yes was within the most crowded place. Firstly meet up with Belo to just walk around. First up we went to bugis and walk2 around. Despite of being really uncomfortable in that dress, i end up being okay with it and then do not care about it anymore. Still my feet are crying out due to the shoe being freaking tight or i guess it was just my long toes. Hahahha!

Well belo bought for me this purple boxer which is freaking cute lah. Like seriously, its purple and full of phone which is in shades of pink. hahha! He insisted of buying the eeyore but then nahh~ Though i really want to have that eeyore still.. Alahh~~ Never mind lah. hahha!! Then at 6 we made our separate ways and i meet up with all the fuckers. Watched fireworks with them and wow! seriously its freaking beautiful lah. There was this one which is gold in colour and it was like raining with gold and its sparkling or its like gold waterfall. Something like that lah. Anyways pictures are with Izzudin anak Ishak. hahha.

After the fireworks were over, we went to chill around Clarke quay then around Raffles. Then at 10.30 we made our way home. Seriously i am freaking glad that all the crowd were over when we bored the train back home. Like seriously, if we were to make our way back home right after the fireworks, there will be human traffic jam all around sey. Which is really irritating especially you have to be around sticky people. Well i don't know why but its just me that i really hate sweaty people. Even if i were to have a guy, i wont hug him if he was sticky. YUCKS!!

Tomorrow school. Just plain tired to go to school. Well lucky me that holiday is just around the corner and i am glad lah! Though exam are also around the corner or should i say next week. hahha! Good luck sia Sue. ughh! Ouh and tomorrow i will be watching GI Joe with Hilmi, Beng and also Khairiah. Yes uh!! Happy or what! okay now i am freaking excited. So yeah guys enough blabbering. Take care and rock on mates!

birthday

2009-08-09T02:20:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates!!

I would like to wih Singapore a Happy birthday lah sey! Honestly i don't know how old Singapore is now. Hhaha! But oh well. Throughout my 17 year being a citizen of Singapore really made myself a proud citizen. Though it kinda sucks when it comes to the GST part and such but still this is our home. I would not even want to migrate awak to other country. Though other country such as Cancun, Venice and Paris havve better scenary and such, its the people in Singapore which made me feel like home. Like we were used to be in this surroundings and i am glad for this.

Saturday was spend aimlessly. I only sit at home and just do the house chores. Nothing fun was done though. Still i felt relaxed sitting at home though not doing anything. Once awhile is great but everyday at home rotting is so not good. hahha! And tomorrow, i am not sure if i wanna go out. I don't wanna be in the freaking cramp situation. People queing for the trains and other public transport. Darn it man! With the human traffic jam. So not in the mood to be in that situation. But still, we'll see where i will be heading to tomorrow.

And on Monday, gonna go to Noren chalet. Can't wait for it. Gonna meet my bitches. Darn it sia.. We are all as if living in a whole different world sey. All busy with their stuff and since exam are just around the corner, well it just makes the situation even worst. Well i just hope one day we could make time for each other aite my bitches. Lets have another girls/ladies outing please.. And this time no picnics uh. hehhe.

Well yeah done with this for noe. Take care and rock on people!

big butt day

2009-08-07T22:08:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

Weekends are here and i dont think i could enjoy much of it. I will have to stay at home and gotta start with my PP and also start my revision since UT3 is just around the corner. I am so not ready for this and darn seriously, i am so dead. Hahahah.

Well i would want to wish this favourite big butt of mine a happy 23rd bdae to him. So yeah Fir get this straight in your head that you are not a kid anymore. Well hope that you will have a great day and year ahead. Also thanks for always being there for me. Really do appreciates it. Well yeah hope that Tuhan akan murahkan rezekimu dan yeah may God bless you always. And also not forgeting my dearest daddy. happy birthday dad. Just hope you were here to celebrate with the whole family. Will always love and miss you dad.

Bought myself a mango dress and yeah i love it. hahha! Ouh and also me new mp3. Was supposed to buy and ipod touch but nahh~ just not my type. They are just not user friendly towards my fingers and also my nails. haha! Well now what i need is a few tops, a bagpack and a slipper for myself. Then i will be self contented. hehhe.

I really do love my bitches now. I am sorry if i have hurt any of you guys along the way.. Really sorry. I really don't mean it. Love you guys to bits and pieces. Meet up after exam period please.

I guess i am done now. Take care and rock on people!

tired

2009-08-03T15:11:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates...

Despite sleeping all the throughout my weekends, i still woke up late for school. Darn it man!! I really need to get my Bs and and As. Fuck sia! Faci have been saying that i am a smart kiddo just that i am easily distracted and also always late. Always late means everyday late without fail. hehhe.

School is only left with 2 or 3 weeks then holidayyy!! Ouh yes! I love it man! Like seriously i cant wait for holiday. But then i would need to get a job to kill time. Birthdays are around. Too many August baby! Darn it! hahah!!
7 August: My daddy and Firdaus
15 August: My sister
28 August: Faruq and Amira
Die lah like this. But nevermind. Fasting month is also around the corner. I am not confident that i would beed to fast during the first few days. I would be getting my menses on those days. Darn it sia. No motivation lah like this.. hais... Ouh and i cant wait for class BBQ on 26 August. wee~~

Took this quiz on what my birthday month say about me. And i got this!!

Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Best or what!!! I am so loving it~ nyehhee And okay i am tired now. Take care and rock on people!

happy pills

2009-08-01T23:31:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates!!

My dearest nephew is here and seriously he is one cheeky kiddo. Really really cheeky that i think thats he just ouh so adorable. hhha! Now he doesnt' want to talk to either of me and my brother because we mad him upset by disturbing him that he would need to go home alone tomorrow. HAHAHAH!!

Well i really-really want to go to Cancun, Mexico. Darn the place is so freaking gorgeous. I am falling in love with the beach and darn i need to start working and saving up now. Hehhe. If not then i would just want to travel around the world. Darn it man!!

Okay i am bored now. Like seriously where the hell are all my happy pills. None of them were online and darn boring or what!! My prepaid is freaking low now. Okay not low but its freaking left with nothing. Like $0.00. So who wanna top up for me? hehhe

Ouh well i am done for today. I really wanna go shopping lah. hehhe. So yeah take care and rock on people!

yucks!

2009-07-30T20:10:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

Second post of the day. But i just can't help it that the fact that this video is freaking disgusting. hehhe. Like seriously eww~~ HAHAH!!

my everything

2009-07-30T13:14:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates!!

I am seriously hooked to this song. Hahahha! ouh well~ As usual i reach class late again. Duhh~~ Well anyway yesterday was great. Though it was awhile but seriously i had fun. So we went swimming at Sengkang. Okay actually i really wanna go swimming and i ask the guys if they want to. And hell yeah! So at the same time celebrate Haidil birthday. Hahaha! So who was there? Din, Ruq, Haidil, Qir, Riez, Aidil and also my brother. haha! We reach there at around 8pm. hahha! I know kinda stupid right. But whatever still we had fun. hhahah! Then swim and play around the pool. Yeah the slides was freaking scary expecially the covered ones. Darn it! I was like screaming due to being fear of the dark, height and also the freaking fast speed sliding down. -.-

I believe now is the time where i would just have to think about myself. I should focus on myself first then come others. Its just a waste of time worrying about others when that particular person doesnt even care about you. Seriously it just sucks big time sia. Enjoy life, appreciate nature, spending more time with my family and mates are the best right now. I am doing fine and everything is just freaking awesome right now. I guess.

Ouh and rumours are just funny. I had fun laughing my ass off. Ouh well girl, you cant just judge by what you see. I may be close to him but i am not his. Its funny lah at times but then i pity him sia... Ouh well won't say much lah.. hehhe. Take care mates! ROCK ON!

stuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupid

2009-07-26T05:40:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

Yes i know its like freaking 5.41am right now and i am still not asleep yet. I just seems to fall asleep. Well actually so not true. I need to stay awake lahh~~ The 2 fuckers are now beside me and are asleep. So much for thonning lah. They are the worst guys on earth. HAHAHHA!! Freaking irritating lah ask me to hang out with them and now leave me alone. Bugger eh you guys. Hahha! Still could remember that Ruq said that whoever fall asleep 'dasar kental'. Now tell me saper yang kental nie!! WAKAKKAKA!! Gundu sia you guys but still no matter what i still love them two.

So yeah take care and rock on guys!

sweet cherry pie

2009-07-25T01:19:00.005+08:00

Hey there mates!!

Today was superb! Get to meet Sab and Mira. Ira was no where to be found. haha! Darn her lah. Anyway slack at Sab's crib till 10 there. Helped her with the muffins that she needed to cater for tomorrow event. And hell yeah at the same time we do have loads of fun. Like seriously i miss those times during secondary school when we would eat together on the same freaking table. hahha! And after school we would slack around and most memorable place would be 'hip hop jelly'. Like being with all my bitches are as the same as being in a relationship. We do get jealous and all and hving tiffs are a norm. But whats important is that we all love each other and i really really do love them.

They are like my whipped cream with loads of caramel on my caramel frappe because they are my sweetest darlings.
There are the cheese on my McSpicy because they keep make me asking for more..
They are the chillies that makes food spicy as they could bring tears to me as they could be such a pain in the ass at times.
They are like the sun, oxygen, food and every daily intake as i really need daily dosage of love, fun and laughter from them.
Ouh yes i really do love them! Thay have always been my rainbows after all rainy days. They are my love till the end.

So yeah.. Now i just wanna rest and yeahh take care and rock on guys!

Bebot

2009-07-24T01:02:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates!!

My day was spend splendidly with all my love ones.. So yeah first up i would like to wish Happy 18 Birthday to Izzudin, Fareez and Syaqir. Well hell yeah today was hell of a fun. Spend my day after school with the guys and bitches. Ouh yes them! Seriously i was glad to spend time with them and hell yeah we did took loads of pictures... Well as usual have to wait for Shahley. Ouh and also was freaking glad that Din liked the surprise we made for him. Ouh yes he teared up a bit. It was all worth while. Ouh F.Y.I, Din could not make it as he was sick. Pity him sia.. Well just hope that he would get well soon..

So yeah i guess thats all for now.. Still waiting for that belo's call. So slow~~ So yeah take care and rock on mates!

dream

2009-07-21T21:51:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

I seriously miss those moments. I miss bitching with all my mates don't matter if it were to be with the boys and the girls. They are still as equally as fun. Well anyway i have been having weird dreams lately. I do know that i am really afraid to fall again and to be this way, i had a bloody night mare about this. And seriously it sucks big time.

Dream: dreamdream

1. imaginings while asleep: a sequence of images that appear involuntarily to the mind of a sleeping person, often a mixture of real and imaginary characters, places, and events
Nightmare:night·mare

1. bad dream: a frightening or upsetting dream

2. traumatic experience: a traumatic, very upsetting, or extremely difficult and troublesome experience or situation

3. dreaded event: a situation or event that somebody particularly fears

First up was dreaming about one of my ex, Haikal. Ouh yes him. How random can it be. I dreamt about me having a conference call with him, Faddy (his GF) and also Fitri (his friend). So yeah in the dream Faddy was like being really loving to him and calling him dear and such and none of them knew i was in the call only except for Haikal. Honestly i was clueless on what this dream mean but whatever it is, this brings me back to the past. Darn it!

Next up would be about this guy whom i have been contacting lately. He was calling me dear and all just like what other boys who want my attention would do to me. and in this dream of mine, i started to fall for him and i really think that this could be the right time be fall in love again. However, i receive a message from him saying that he wants me to stop contacting him and leave him. Seriously i was felt really fucked up in this dream of mine and when i woke up, it comes to me how much i am really afraid to fall in love again. I am afraid to be hurt again.. Sucks!

Anyway having this bad tummy ache really sucks. I am having diarrhea and its really painful sey. Darn it lah! Life is such a bugger lately. Anyhoos take care and rock on mates!

Fly to my heart

2009-07-19T19:01:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates hell yeah i am flying!!!!

Watch all the flowers
Dance with the wind
Listen to snowflakes
Whisper your name
Feel all the wonder
Lifting your dreams
You can fly (Fly)

Fly to who you are
Climb upon your star
if you believe you´ll
find your wings. Fly
To your heart

Touch every rainbow
Painting the sky
Look at the magic
Glide through your life
A sprinkle of
pixie dust circles
the night you can fly

Rise to the heights of
all you can be
(Fly, Fly)
Soar on the hope of
marvelous things

smilling gleefully

2009-07-18T18:03:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates!!

Ouh yeah!! I am freaking happy today. I don't nkow why but i am just happy! YAY! I'M GAY!! Though the sky is dark and its going to rain soon i am freaking happy. reason why is just that i am going to meet my fucktards bastards guys. hahha! Faruq and Haidil. Yes them. Hahaha!

We have no idea on what to do for today and i was woke up by Faruq's call. He was saying about him wanna go out and all but no idea on where to go and stuff. Imagine how irritating that can be. Darn it Ruq!!

So yeah will be out soon just gonna wait for Haidil call and off i go. Ouh yes.. Another one.. This haidil dress like girl. Fucking long lah!! Bugger sia. And now i have to wait for him and just get ready to get nag by Faruq for being late. But i don't care!

The fact that i am happy and feeling kind of hyper today is all i want. And hell yeah i am enjoying life now. Just like the quote that i get from Taisen Deshimaru Roshi - “If you are not happy here and now, you never will be.” Well yeah i would always wanna be happy man.. I would want to live life :)

So yeah. Haidil just give me a call. So yeah take care and rock on mates!

telling myself it's okay

2009-07-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

Today was great i supposed. Meet up with Shahrizal and went to watch Harry Potter. Seriously the story sucks big time. The freaking show is totally a waste of money and time. Its like 2 and a half a hour show and the action part is only 5 to 10 minutes. The rest are just talking and yeah seriously the ending was totally fucking hanging lah. I and Shah was like.. WHAT!!! Thats all? -.-" Ughh! Like come on man! You can do better than this sey.. Bugger sia.

Then after that went to meet up Hilmi at tamp. Accompanied him to Ubi to top up money for his bike practical and then off back to tamp for our dinner. Really enjoyed his accompany but i'm just curious on what is happening to him being freaing lame now. Sumpah mi.. sekarang ko kelepeh. wakakak~~~ Okay joking only lah.. Jangan marah eh.. Nanti macam jantan sundal~~ Waakakka!! Well yeah after all that, went home and now feeling kind of down.

People all told me to get over it and yes i know i should but darn! it's freaking irritating. Everytime when i was alone at home or in my room lying down, my mind would just wander around and all of the sudden i am feeling really upset. Darn i seriously hate flashbacks. Happy memories are great but not cool with someone whom you won't to be with. Na'ah so not cool. Ouh whatever~~ I would let it be and get over this. Just like what a friend have told me, "Ape su dapat sedih-sedih teros?" (What do i get in return by being sad all day long?) So yeah i am so gonna be happy and not care about others for now. For now i am going to be selfish and just let my heart be cold and i will bury it deep under neath inside the dark coffin. I won't want to be helpless or vulnerable for now. I will fall in love again one day but not now. Just not now.

So yeah guys take care and rock on people! I am done for this.

That lump takes a strangling hold
Squeezes tight till your cold and tears run dry and where you once were worm now is tattered and torn crumbles and fades

Your stuck in the moment when you thought you were rolling but you can't move on you feel like your able to love past the moment but you can't move on asking why I can't move on

green eyes

2009-07-15T21:26:00.006+08:00

Hey there mates..

Was browsing facebook and saw something which really bugs the hell out of me. I was pretty darn upset about it but then err.. fuck it i guess. Well anyway i guess what Hilmi say might be true. So yeaah i won't care and i don't care about it anymore. Well anyway was reading up quotes and i find this.

Clive Staples (Jack) Lewis - “Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket — safe, dark, motionless, airless — it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”

Well i guess what it say was true. If you are afraid to get hurt then dont give away your heart. Don't fall in love or whatever. Instead lock it up and keep it cold, away from everything. However when that happen, we would then never fall in love again. We would always have this fear and we would be cold. Thus to love is to be helpless. You would have to accept whatever it is and never stop falling. Just get back up when love knock you down.

I believe i am feeling better now. To meet my bitches was the best and i would really like to thanks Hilmi and firdaus and also the bitches for being there for me. Also including my classmates. :) Wahh~~ Like as if i am taking award sey. heheh. Slacking with bitches was best! Had fun exchanging story and goossiping. hehhe. And i just hope we would have more of it soon.

So yeah i am done for this. Take care and rock on guys!

knock me down

2009-07-14T10:07:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well i cried when i heard the news. Honestly i was not ready to get hurt again. The feeling really sucks and yes i fall flat on my face again. Ouh bugger sia.. Just wondering.. Have you been faking all these while or what? Darn it man..

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place
I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down
I was flying, now I'm crashing
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'mma ask him
Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
And if it hits better make it worth the fall
Sometimes love comes around, and it knocks you down just get back up when it knocks you down

Anyway.. I shall stop now. So yeah take care and rock on mates!

sidewalks

2009-07-13T00:14:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well i really do had fun today. Went swimming at Jurong and hell yeah i really do had fun. So yeah cut it short. When i reach home, the mood just came sweeping my leg off the ground. So yeah i am in my down mood now. Firdaus is really trying hard to cheer me up with all his crap but still it doesn't work as much.

Like seriously if only i could understand him and could read his mind. I wouldn't want to say much. So yeah take care and rock on guys.

complicated

2009-07-11T13:54:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..
Anyway will be out later on. Meeting flower kiddo. Yeah.. Okay whatever now i am bored. Gotta do a lot of house work later. Fuck man!!!
Well i guess i am just dissapointed somehow. It just confusing and freaking complicated. Ah fuck it uh!! Yeah i wanna stop now and get ready doing all the house work. Take care and rock on guys!

doubt

2009-07-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

As you all know that i am head over heel over my flower-kiddo but then as i was playing my game, a sudden thought just came to me. I was thinking what if i was hurt again. Darn the fear of falling in love just came back again. I am really afraid. Loads of question are running through my mind when i was with him. Like is he taking this seriously, how long are we gonna be like this and so on.

I just need assurance from him that he was happy to have me and all. But then i just cant take all guys are the same. Darn i really should stop making this stereotyping of all guys are the same; jerks. Ouh god~~ What should i do now.. I am really afraid on what's gonna happen in the future. and yes i am still young, but still i had enough of getting hurt over and over again. I just wanna get over and done with all the hurting and actually just settle down. I would love to have a long term relationship. I really wanna get serious and just stick to 1 guy. I am sick and tired of having to many guys but still i really do appreciate them as friends.

Ouh fuck! what the hell am i crapping about. Darn!! Flower-kiddo please give me assurance about your feelings please.. Loving you..

Well yeah take care and rock on guys!

Qayyum 18th

2009-07-09T12:42:00.009+08:00

Hey there mates!!
Yesterday was splendid! And before i start my post, i would like to wish Qayyum a Happy 18 Birthday!! Our boy is all grown up now. hahha!! So yeah we spend his birthday by having dinner at Arnold's and seriously we really do had fun. And hell yeah i get to meet all the fuckers and i really do miss hanging out with them. And even better is to meet my sidekick babe, Sab. Wuhuu~~ Gerek or what!
There were loads of pictures taken yesterday but i only choose which is important. Hahah! Time spent with them will always be the greatest as we could just crack up on anything and just enjoy our self without anyone being left out. Thats what i like about them. Slack at parkway was great. Din trying to be the tourist and seriously they were like one jakuns. Freaking funny lah!!
Fareez expensive face :)
when Putra say that my face will always be busuk (smelly)
My lovely sidekick

The four GAYS!! BOY SETIA, BOY NAK SOUND, BOY MANJE and BOY NAK STEAD. So please vote which is your fave :)
When camwhore became a hobby.
Tra feeling berg per..

So yeah seriously was a great day. Everything was just perfect. Now it really feels like we were back in secondary school. So yeah take care and rock on people!!

let me in

2009-07-06T23:59:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

Okay i am freaking happy today. Like seriously.. Hehhe. Some may know why others may not. The main thing is i am happy. After school went to hang out with him. Yes him!! Slacked at Pasir Ris Park as i really want to play the swing. Though its wet, i still don't give a damn. I was glad that he could be there with me and entertain my crap. ( You tell me which guy would want to go to PRP just to play swing???)

So reach there already like seriously everything is wet. And me being pemalas and wear slipper to school, really had a hard time walking with the sands all stuck at my toes. But still i have fun. After swing slack around and chill.

Then yeaah Sarah and Ikin called so yerp meet up with them and send sarah hme.. My dear girl.. Please do take care of yourself.. Anything just do call me and i will come to the rescue. hehe. Aku sayang kau tau.. Mwah!!

Anyway i really think that i am falling for him. I dont know why but i just feel that its right.. I really love being around him and laughing and smilling and bullying him. Okay so many and. hahha!! I just hope that he does feel the same way as how i did. I am so afraid of fallling in love again. But i just cant help it to fall for him expecially after seeing those eyes and smile :)

Ouh darn.. I guess i should stop now.. Take care and rock on people.

changing skies

2009-07-05T23:14:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates..

Sorry for the long missing in action thingy. Hahha! So yeahh... I am freaking happy lah. I don't know why but seeing you just makes me wanna giggle all the way and i am just feeling happy all the way.. I honestly kinda like this feelings though there is this part of me where i am just feeling afraid. Ouh well. I just hope this would turn out great.

Last Saturday went to Johore Bahru to get our(my family) Raya clothings. So yeah we are all very excited but then seriously this year nothing special much. But still i am happy for what i already have. And seriously on that day i ate a lot and when i reach home, i really do have a bad stomach ache..

And yesterday went to meet him. Yes uh!! Okay Surayah all excited already.. hehe. I dont know why but i just love it and i enjoy being around him. Hahahah!! Okay stop it okay sue.. Enough is enough. hehe. And at night Faruq and Haidil come to meet me just to thon. Watch some horror movie but i and Faruqq end up sleeping. I was too afraid to watch and faruq already watched it. So only haidil watch it alone lah. And seriously the expression were priceless. hehe.
Haidil: Eh su ngok ngan aku lah.. Tkkn aku takot sorg kn..
How lame can he be sia.. Ishh!!

Anyway when i was going to school today, yes again i was late. Anyway back to story... As i was in the bus, there was this old man who is crossing the road. He crossed when it was red light and i know why. He walks really slow and i mean really slow. So i continued to observe him.. People walk and just look at him. Even if they are in tthe same direction, they just look at him. The old man have to put up his hand to tell the driver of the vehicle to wait for him so he could cross safely. And all of a sudden, i just felt sad. Like really sad and i started to cry. Okay not really cry lah but the tears just came to my eyes.. I don't know why but i am just sad..

Well yeah i guess i had enough typing. I am really tired now. So yeah take acre and rock on guys!

New divide

2009-06-29T11:34:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates...

Well i am in the breeding ground of H1N1. Like seriously i am freaking pissed of as this is totally too much. Like 51 cases already still don't want to close the school down? WTH! For god sake! I care about my health and i do not want to get infected by some virus or whatsoever okay!!

Anyway i had a blast during the weekends. On saturday went out with mom, bro and my aunt. SO yeah first went to Geylang to get my specs done. and hell yeah bigger spec this year. hehe :) After then off to Bugis as i wanna buy myself a watch. So to Bencoolen and me and my bro bought the same watch. Only different colour lah. hehe. Ouh yeah we even have the nearly same specs. Hehehe. So we walked around Sim Lim to justcheckk out stuff and then back to Tampines 1.. There my mom bought for me a shirt and jeans. Hell yeah i am freaking happy lah. But then i want more shirts please. Like seriously this is not enough. hehhe :)

On another hand.. I need a job to satisfy myself.

Well then on Sunday, was supposed to meet Mira but she could not make it due to some last minute thingy.. So i went to TM to meet up with Hilmi to catch up some stuff. I accompanied him during his break time and after that i went swimming with my sis and bro. And seriously feom now onwards i would want to swim every week. WUHUU!!! So yeah! This wednesday, i would be going swimming with Sani. hahha. After swimming went home and another last minute came up. Hahah! I am in love with last minute plans lah deyy. So yeah watched Transformer and hell yeah it was a freaking great show lah. Thanks to that person lah eh. hahha!! :)

So yeah thats how i spend my weekends and yeah now all back to school. Freaking bored lah. And whats worst!!!! Chemistry sucks big time!! I HATE CHEM!! Hehhhe. And yes i hate school now. Especially with this virus thingy going around. ISH!! Fucking asshole.

I guess i should be done for now. So yeah take care and rock on people!! Anything text me. HAHAHAHHA!!

knocks me down

2009-06-27T03:01:00.007+08:00

Hey there mates...

I just could not be bothered anymore lah.. With school being really fucked up. Darn!! I cant believe it is already 34 cases in RP and the school still did nothing. They only quarantine the first year students. Like seriously what the hell eh. I won't want to get infected by this virus and then spread it to others. Or worst spread it to my family.. Hais.. I just don't want to make people suffer. UGH!!

Whatever it is, i am trying to enjoy myself now.. Everyday after school i would go home straight and then spend my time with family or just have a quality rest time at home. I really need to catch up with my sleep and stop being cranky.

So anyway these days i find myself feeling all girly. Like seriously i wore the floral skirt to meet my family.. Ouh.. How cute Surayah looks. -.- Heheh. And tomorrow i am going to wear skirt to go out with my family. Hehhe. Mommy can i buy more skirts??Okay i am really finding this awkward sey but i am enjoying it.. hehe

Anyway was tagged by Sarah to do this thingy.. So here goes..

1) Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
-> Forehead

2) How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
-> Tired

3) Who was the last person you took photo with?
-> Murnie and Alia ??
I guess..

4) Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?
-> Nope.

5) Would you ever donate blood?
-> Ouh yes i would :)

6)Have you had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?
-> YES!!!

7) Do you want someone dead?
-> Nahh.. Just let it all be it..

8) What does your last msg says?
-> 'Nope' (short and sweet right)

9)What are you thinking right now?
-> What am i really thingking..

10)Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
-> All my babygirls.. I really need them now.. :(

11)What is the time you go to bed last night?
-> Knocked out around 10pm yesterday.. Hehe

12)Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
-> Pierre Cardin

13)Is someone on your mind?
-> Nope.. not at all

14)Who was the last person texted you?
-> Firdaus

15)Tag 8 random people to do this survey.
-> *Ira *Mira *Sabrina *Suhaila *Syahirah *Ikin *Sani *Whoever lah

16) Who is number 2 having relationship with?
-> An open relationship with Zulhilmi.

17) Is number 3 a male or female?
-> A sweet young lady :)

18) Say something about number 1.
-> Memekak, kaki gerek and a really great friend.

Well anyway throughout the whole day i was stuck with this song..

Well anyway thats all guys.. Take care and rock on people!!

friendship

2009-06-25T13:24:00.005+08:00

Hey there mates..
Well i am really blessed to have friends that would be there by my side no matter what. I am really grateful to have them. I would not know what would happen to me and how i could handle all these things that's happening around me alone. Okay i am grateful to my family too okay people.. Well anyway.. Shedding some tears do make me feel good somehow. Sorry to Firdaus for calling and disturbing your sleep. I just need someone to talk to. Thank you so much for all my friends. Ish!! Its as if i am taking an award or something sia. haha!
Yesterday i had a great time meeting my 2 gundus. After Faruq and Haidil watch their movies or outing with the techs, they came to my place and slack with me. I was happy to meet them as i really missed them. So they slack at my place till 6am. We watched Radit dan Jani and gossip about loads of stuff. Hahaha!! Was super glad that i get to meet them sey. Freaking happy. Hehhe :) However since you all know that they left at 6am, i only get my sleep at 7 which then i have to wake up at 7.15am which basically i dont make it. Hahahha!!
Today way to school was seriously freaking slow. I tell you like taking the slowest bus ever. The speed was like 10km\hour. Bugger sia!! And what's worst is that i am freezing in the bloody bus. The bloody aircon like fuhh!!! Seriously sia.. Last warning eh. hahha!! And yeah reach school as expected late agian. Duhh!! I woke up at 8.30am sia.. I have been late for the whole week and its not only late but NIFM (not in first meeting). Hahha!! Am i pro or what!! So yeah wont be expect much for my grade sia today. Darn!!
So yeah, i am freaking tired now and really sleepy. So yeah i guess i should end it now. Take care and rock on people!! Learn to show appreciation to people especially your family and friends. You might not know when would be your last day.. Ish!! Scary.. Kkk... Stop crapping. Take care people!! Rock on!

sorry seams to be the hardest word

2009-06-23T19:16:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

I know this is like the second post of the day.. So what! Anyway i know you are mad at me and you have the right reason to be mad at me. I am sorry but its just that i can't seem to be telling you the truth on that day. Once again i am sorry. You should know who you are.

Anyway i am not feeling well today when in class. I am very tired and i don't know.. I was quiet the whole day and i was cranky the whole day. Ouh well i guess it was because if the lack of sleep and rest. Whatever..

So nothing much happen today as i told you guys i was quiet.. So yeaah i am so totally out of words now. Really glad that i am not schooling tomorrow. Really wish i could catch up my sleep. Anyway take care and rock on poeple!!

let there be love

2009-06-23T11:53:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates..

Now having lab session and as usual i am late for class. I know i must do something about my punctuality and yes i will. Seriously i am feeling really tired right now and just hope that my day will go on smoothly. I am all grumpy today and does not talk much before eating but now i guess i am doing fine. Slowly but surely..

So yesterday went to meet Mira and also Ira. Miss them loads and glad that we had our sharing times yesterday. As teenagers, its hard not to have any problems with life. And problem will always be with us till we get old and die.. We can't keep on running away from them cause it will still haunt us. We would need to sit and solve it and understand the problem by learning it from the root itself.

On another hand, i am unsure why must you hate us. What did we do and you barely even know us to judge us. I was shock to hear about it. We are not even close to you. And one thing for sure you have to earn the respect from others. Thus you have to respect people in order for them to respect you. We are all human beings and to respect each other is essential. How do you respect us to give you respect when you yourself treat us like one kind. Ish!

Enough of her. Well anyway i guess i should be done now. My eyes could not take it any longer. So yeah take care and rock on guys!

what is happening?

2009-06-22T11:15:00.015+08:00

Hey there mates..

Class is just plain boring today. The fact that i do not want to wake up when it is already 8.40am. I was dreading to school and just could not help myself and pull myself out of bed. I know i am going to be late and still it doesn't occur to me that i need to rush to school. Then at 9am i could still roll in bed scratching my head and all. hahahha

So now having chemistry right now and you know how much i dread to do chemistry especially the mole thingy. Ish!! Still could recall when i was in secondary 3 how excited i was when it comes to science. I love chemistry at that moment and i was part of the A1 and A2 class. However, when i was in secondary 4 i started to slack and i was put to the C grade class for science. Since then i started to hate science and thus causing me to flunk science in my O' level.

Part of me was saying that darn! i should have not start slacking but another half was like ahh! fuck it man. Hahah. So yeah what i am suppose i can do now is just focus on my diploma. Wow!! Diploma siol.. Like seriously how fast time flew.. Now all big size and getting older by age.

Like now i am already in year 2 and soon i will end my 1st semester. Then we would all have to change class again and everything is back to square one especially the making friends part. Somehow i was looking forward to change class though. I can't wait to see who are my new classmates and just would want to extend my circle of friends. But the thought of needing to start a conversation with people just make me go damn i am so dead...

I really want to get a job. I really need one right now. There are so much stuff that i want to get and i know its funny but i feel like buying skirt and dress. Hahah! How random can that be. Guess i am changing. Hahha!! NOT!!!! I still prefer my jeans but maybe at times i just wanna dress up and be a young lady liow. Can?? hahah!!!

Okay enough crapping. Gonna end it now. Take care and rock on people!

wake up the dead!

2009-06-22T01:06:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates!!

Say what!!! Hahaha. Okay kind off in crazy mood now. I am happy with the new skin!! Wee~~ Yeah.. Actually was bored just now so decided to update my change my blog skin and have a proper update. Sweet or what!

Well anyway the first week have been really busy for me. I was so not ready for school and i do not have enough sleep. Had to spend my time at the FIH Hockey thingy on last monday and also saturday. Monday was busy as there was too many things happening at once. Went to school, had UT after school and off to the event. How tired can i be. But however i really enjoyed that day as there were Aussie boys and damn they are hot!! hahha! And on saturday there were this Indian guy name Victo. Freaking hot lah. Seriously he doesn't look like he is from Indian. Darn!!!

Well then on friday went to watch Ghost of Girlfriends Past with Yadiy. Damn! Freaking good movie. It was sweet and i really had fun. So met him after school and he sent me home too put my bags away. Then of to his brother's workshop to slack around first and at around 8 we make our way to Cathay. After the movie went to eat near Bencoolen and then home sweet home. Really it was a great day and i enjoyed it.

Well honestly i am missing my bitches. I have started school a week ago and they are now; i dont know where. haha! Well on the other hand, i miss my boys. Darn it's been ages since i've met them and slack around with them. Really hope to meet them soon lah sey.

Ouh and btw on some random thoughts, i want Anthony Padilla please. hehhe. So anyway will end this. Take care and rock on people!!

bitches is love..

2009-06-12T11:42:00.002+08:00

Hey there beautiful mates..

Its like 11.47am now and seriously i have not had my sleep yet. I am seriously wondering how am i going to survive later on.. Hahaha. I am sure going to be noisy and start to crap around. Ouh yes my bitches will know that i did not had my sleep with that hyper active behavior. Hehehe.

So watch the whole season of The City and also the whole of season 1 of Laguna Beach. Like this is what i did to spend my whole night with. I was like marathoning alone. Ouh well.. You can't expect much from a single lady right. Hehhe.

I honestly cant wait for later as i am so excited to meet them. Like after how many weeks man!! Darn! I just miss secondory school life.. I love how we are so close back then and being at each other side when we needed each other most. Like everything was fine when it came to us that after we graduate from EVSS, everything would change. Yes we did plan that we would meet often but then with our school timetable being a bicth, we can't make up time for each other. Darn! thus we spend most of our time only on msn. Damn how i wish it was still back in secondary school time or maybe we are all in the same school. Heeheh. Won't that be great :)

Now i am like wondering on what i should do. I am staring to feel sleepy but i really can't sleep. If i were to sleep like seriously, i won't be able to wake up later on to meet them. And the poof!! Cause since i'll be starting school next week and them just starting to have their holidays. Darn!!This just sucks big time. Damn it lahh!!

Anyway i guess i shoudl just stop blabering and start doing my house chores. So yeah take care and rock on guys!!

tired

2009-06-08T02:41:00.007+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well seriously i feel sick today. My body is weak and i keep on feeling like vomiting. I have been shitting since just now and burp too much. My chest feel like being compressed and seriously i really do feel weak. Why sia?? Haiyo.. I just hope that i wont fall sick lahh.

Anyway enjoyed just now. Went out with Yadiy and yerp help him with his project. Slack around and yerp done for the day. And tomorrow i would be spending my day alone. Gonna be a freaking boring day lah. Die sia like this. Just hope some plan would come up tomorrow so i could at least go out and not stay bored at home. Hahhaha!!

Well as you can see for the polling, PRP won. So we will be going to Pasir Ris Park..
Time: 12pm? (will be confirm again)
Date: 12 Jun 2009
Venue: Small McD
So bitches, please bring some snacks or what aite. I will confirm again who will bring what. Aite people. Really do miss you guys and cant wait for Friday. Yahoo!!!

Well yeah guess gonna stop now and have my rest. Take care and rock on people!!

I'm not okay

2009-06-04T09:14:00.005+08:00

Hey there mates..

I am such an early bird today and i have no idea on what i am supposed to do for today. Yesterday was quite a shaky night for me. I was left clueless and seriously why should i even bother about any of you. Why should i give a damn about your feelings when you don't even care about mine. Yes you may say that you are not mad at me but still i could hear that it your voice that you are. Now everything change. Its hard for me to even think that i would fall again. I had enough of being a paper doll. I am a freaking human being with fragile feelings for God's sake. So please start treating me like a human being lah! Freaking assholes.. Guys are all jerks!!

Was pretty mad at mom yesterday. Everything i did seems not to be right in her eyes. I am always a burden and i hate it when i was ignored by you. Ugh!! Hate sulking early morning. And what's worst?? There is nobody to hear out my scream, my complains and no one could even be there for me now... Darn i need a life. Sucks to be this way..

Ouh well fuck it. I am done for now. Please take care guys and rock on!

polling session is now open

2009-06-03T17:10:00.004+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well anyway to bitches!!
OUTING WILL BE ON FRIDAY, 12 JUN 2009. SINCE MOST CAN'T MAKE IT ON SATURDAY SO ON FRIDAY CAN?
TIME WILL BE CONFIRM AGAIN CAUSE I WOULD NEED TO KNOW WHAT TIME ALL OF YOU END YOUR EXAM. -.-
WE WILL BE HEADING TO EAST COAST PARK MORE OF THE BEDOK JETTY SIDE CAN?
OR PASIR RIS PARK WHERE THERE IS PLAYGROUND?
SO I WILL BE DOING A POLL ON THIS PLEASE FREAKING VOTE LAH!! Cute kan aku. hehhe :)

Anyway i am super duper bored lah.. I need to freaking do the house work and i am freaking lazy today. My prepaid is dying soon and i am freaking broke. Hahha. How? Confirm die one. Can't wait for Saturday, 13 Jun. Its gonna be my nephew birthday party. :) Well his birthday was suppose to be on the 8th Jun but we will be celeebrating it on the 13th. So yeah.

So holiday have not been great lately. All the fun part have not yet happen and i am rotting at home.. I cant wait for my KL relatives to come as i know we will be going out lah. Since we should be giving them tours mahh.. -.- Yeah right as if sia sue. Hehehhe. Well life have been great though. Really happy where i am right now and i am starting to appreciate everything. Hehhe. Even the humid weather. -.-

So yeah i guess i'll better stop here.

And as for the bitches please do the polling below.
Sabrina, Tenku Amira, Siti Sarah, Syahirah, Suhaila, Shikin, Zarifah and Noren please do the polling for God sake.

OUR DESTINATION ON THE 12 JUN
PASIR RIS PARK
EAST COAST

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Thank you and take care people! Ouh yeah rock on!!

for an update

2009-06-01T21:13:00.003+08:00

Ouh.. Ai dee yai dee yaii dee yaii dee yaiii

2009-06-01T17:10:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..

So yeah holidays is here and seriously i am freaking bored. Well anyway for the whole day i was like staring blankly not knowing what to do but then whose line is it anyway came to the rescue. Like seriously they crack me up. hahha!! They are full of nonsense. HAHAHHA!

Well anyway was great yesterday. Though was suppose to go out with the bitches ended up all was busy. -.-
So i went out with Mr bothering my sleep. Hahahah. So yeah went to watch Terminator. Was okay show lah. Hahahha. Not too much action i should say. Hehhe. Like seriously. So yeah then went to east coast and get some sand. -.- HAHHA!! Well he had to make this fake grenade using yakult bottle mahh. Hahha!! Then was start gazing. Yeeah! Love it. You guys know mahh how much i love star gazing..

Okay its like 7.15 and i have no idea on what to do next.. Darn!! I hate rotting at home. And i cant wait for activities that will be coming soon. Hehhe.

4th Jun: Family from KL coming.
7th Jun: Going out
10th Jun: Mens hockey event.
15th Jun: Mens hockey event.
20th Jun: Mens hockey event.
23rd Jun: Back to school..

So i guess not that bad after all being sitting at home. At least i could rest and yeah just chill around doing nothing. Hahah. Okay i shall stop now. Enjoy some of the videos from whose line is it anyway.

Hahahha. Well anyway if you keep your brain open, you would understand their jokes. Hehehe. Well anyway thats all guys. Take care and rock on!
Gonna catch Daredevil later :)

crampy vrampy

2009-05-29T14:31:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well now i am having Microbiology. I do enjoy it but at times my body just tends to shut down. Like what i am doing right now. I was suppose to reach school early since Mr who just love to bother my sleep woke me up at such a nice timing. I was glad lah at first that i wont be late. But then this eyes and body of mine would just shut down and poof!! I woke up at 8.10am.

Knowing that i would be late, i still have to rush as i wont want to be really late. Like very late. I have too much NIFM (not in first meeting) kinda of grade. And its really really bad. I wont want to continue my grade being this way. Damn i know i deserve better then this. Like what other facilitator told me, i am a smart girl. hehe :)

Well anyway yesterday meet up with the babies and i am glad to that we get to catch up on loads of things. Am i happy or what! But then i still hope most could make it. Well basically Sarah, Ikin, Suhaila and I was there. So yeah.. you know i know. HAHHA!! Really love them lah dey..
Ouh and by the way to Tenku Amira: Please take care of yourself aite. Don't walk too much. Alermakk. Next time walk carefully lah deyy!! Can babe?
Also another thing, i really wanna meet the girls Please make yourself free. Its the holiday.. I know exams are coming and all but then please can't you guys just sacrifice one day to enjoy. PLEASE!!!! :( heheh

Ouh yeah also i kind of hate today. I really did not expect this to happen and i am not ready at all. I had to walk all the way to W1 to get to the POSB, then had to go to the booklink just to get you?? What the hell are you thinking?? Next time bloody let me know that you are coming. So you wont make my life suffer like what you just did. UGH!!!

Lost anyone on what i was trying to say on the above paragrapgh? Hahaha. Chill lah nothing serious.. Just venting my anger. hehhe :)
Alrightey then.. I can't wait for holidays. Today marks the last day of school!! WUHUU!!!! Happy or what! But then still, later i will have my Biochemistry UT. I just hope i did fine. Hais.. I won't want to retake my module sia.. Fcuk it lahh!!

Anyway thats all guys... Had enough for now. Take care and rock on!

i want waffles

2009-05-25T10:35:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..

Well anyway i will be having my UT today and honestly i am not ready for it. I am freaking clueless of Chemistry and whats happening. I am so dead meat. So today early morning, Mr bothering my sleep, woke me up today and was sumpah irritating nak mampos. So i drag myself up and off to school. Seriously the weather was super duper damn hot. Scorching hot sia! Even in the bus, i feel could feel the heat. -.- Darn it.. Now where is the cloudy days?? I dunwan rain but more clouds to cover up the hot sun. Hehhe.

So yesterday was super duper great. I really enjoy my time with Mr bothering my sleep. Went out to watch Monster vs. Aliens and then had our dinner at bugis. Was a great day though. His irritatingness is worst then mine lehh. Like seriously if you guys cant stand me, then you wont be able to stand him. Wakakak!! He would irritate me and spot my mistake. Witht that tinie winnie mistake, he could brought it up even till today. Bloody asshole sia. But to sum up in one word, i really do enjoy yesterday. Thank you Mr irritating cum love to bother my sleep.

Saturday was my bitchy day. Yes i am sorry but then i had to. You have to understand and i really believe that i am not ready now. It would seriously take a long time. I know you will be fine without me.

Seriously i miss my girls.. I really hope that they are with me now.. They serioussly know what to do when each of us were down. Love you guys liow.. I would really wanna meet you guys up.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!! Darn.. Why must we be seperated and have such a different schedule for school sey. :( Secondary school will always be the best sey... We would always be together and eat on the same table. Hahahha. Like seriously, i miss my bitches.. I want you guys lahh!!

So yeahh.. I really should stop now.. Take care and rock on guys...

sleepless nights

2009-05-21T05:11:00.003+08:00

Hey there wonderful mates!!

Its 5.11 in the morning and i am still not asleep yet. I cant seem to be falling asleep lately. Later i will be skipping school and are going to my sis graduation ceremony and TP. It gonna be in the morning and i am clueless on how i am going to wake up later on. I have tried to close my eyes but then i just can't fall asleep. I have no idea whats bothering me and i have been this way lately. I feel down easily and get angry easily. Ouh well fuck it lah..

Well anyway on another hand i really wanna go watch movie. I really want to watch The Uninvited, Glee, Up and another one which i forget the title already. hahha!! So who wanna watch with me??? Wakakak!! Like as if i have the money like that.. -.-
Today was seriously a boring day i hope i was schooling but ouh well. Woke up late today and then straight away to house chores. Freaking loads of stuff to do and i have to finish all of it before my mom reach home. Or else.. gue dipecat sihh..

Lastly, I WOULD WANT TO WISH AIDIL ADLI A HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!! See you on friday lah eh. Too bad lah you old already. No more teen in your age. So don't feeling cute lah and have more rest. Maklumlah orang tua kan. Tulang pon dah krepot. Haha!! Lastly, may all your wishes come true and have a very happy birthday dude.. AND!!! may God bless you and murah kn rezekimu.. Amiin.. :)

Well yeah... Guess thats all for now. Take care and rock on people.

hush

2009-05-20T03:31:00.010+08:00

Hey there mates..

Its 3.36 am and i am just done with watching The Wedding Game. Such a romantic comedy and somehow this show let me have a different perspective to look at love. There was a scene when the father told his daughter and soon to be son in law.. In love the only thing that would guarantee happiness would be don't lie to each other. Well it really do make me think about what's being told and i believe its true. Like when we started with a lie, how can we even learn to trust each other. And without trust, the whole relationship would be really shaky.

People might think that i am going out of my mind talking about all this stuff. Like suddenly Surayah is becoming all serious. But then i believe i am really reflecting back on all my love life. In love or life, there would always be happiness and sadness. Life and death. Laughter and cries. We may be happy now but we you might never know when sadness lurking somewhere.

When i was in love, there would be moments when i was hurt or i would hurt the other party. But then its what we called life.. This is what makes the world go round. Could you all just imagine if in this world there would be no sadness or everything is only in one direction; there would be no opposition. I am telling you in that life, the world would be dull. There will be no ups and downs everything would be boring. You could always expect what gonna happen next. People would never learn from their mistake as there would be no right or wrong.

Thus with this perception, i could accept life as it is. I accept whats happening around me and just glad that i am still blessed with a family which love me as much. I am blessed to have food on the table and to even have a shelter. Though i really do miss my dad. And you guys who hate ure dad should be glad that you guys have a dad lahh!! Well anyway.. honestly i have no idea where this is going but i just feel like typing out all this. I would really have to try to open up my heart now. Slowly but surely this heart would accept love from a guy one day. Woah.. I really hate hurting or getting hurt. Ouh well like what i said, this is part of what makes the world goes around.

Ouh and btw i love this songs. I love all their songs. Like seriously the lyrics are freaking lovely and seriously it always touched me in a way. Enjoy people.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Photograph each day so we can live forever
Sit in the light to make the dark a little darker
And I dance to move only you
And I fight to kiss and make up

I scream for some silence
I laugh to laugh for once
Not there so you notice I'm gone
And I breathe cause it's necessary
And I sigh when I see the moon
I dream to make sleepless boring

Until there was you
And I feel in the absence of heart
And I plug my eyes to cry
I'm a hopeless romantic and kicking the habit
But all hearts have darts

Sweet, red cherry blossom tree
That lives in both you and me
You marked your name
But I can see it's not on me
So I've shamelessly gone
And made myself come undone
Heavy hangs my head when I'm unhearted

I wear this angel's crown
To cover up my devil's frown
And upon my broken chest
Lay a struggle between loneliness
And things that are out of place
Like my head in outer space
And the carpet you walked on
The ceiling that cries, "Please don't walk away."

Sweet, red cherry blossom tree
That lives in both you and me
You marked your name
But I can see it's not on me
So I've shamelessly gone
And made myself come undone
Heavy hangs my head when I'm unhearted

Bellow it out with all the breath in my lungs
Apologize for all that I've done
You did a number on me and a fantastic job
In the scheme of all things we never felt When your heart's been breached
And your guard's been let down
You've rotten and spoiled me into the ground
And a good mess forgives all the rest we allow

Take care and rock on people.

2009-05-17T00:24:00.003+08:00

HEY HEY HEY PEOPLE!!!!

I would want to wish a very HAPPY BIG LEGAL 18 BIRTHDAY TO SITI SARAH KASSIM AND ALSO SYAHIRAH NOORMAN!!! They are my two lovable bitches and i hope you guys enjoy your day. May you achieve your future endeavour and also every dream. May you have all the happiness in the world and yes!!! SIMLE big big always. Wakkakkaka!!

So yeaah.. Sorry cause never get to spend much time with you guys just now.. Hais.. Seriously sey.. So sad.. :( SORRY TAU!!!!!!

So anyway i have a video for you guys. Enjoy eh.. hehhe :)

Cute right!! Like me. wakakkaka. Okay joking..

So yerrrp today was okay.. Suppose to watch motorcross with Hilmi today but then when we reach there, the event is over. So much for 7 - 10 pm.. -.- Boring or what!! Like seriously sedih bulu kire bulu nyer cerita... But though i still enjoy my day.. Walk around Bugis.. Went to the new shopping centre; whatever the name is.. And then back to tamp for supper. Wuhuu!! Tenderbest babe.. Best giler!! Ouh and sorry Aidil.. Never go support you. hehhe :)

Okay i guess i should really stop crapping now. hahha!! Take care and rock on people!

swing away

2009-05-12T09:52:00.002+08:00

Hey there mates..
I am freaking glad that i am done with my PP scope but i am not sure if it will be accepted or not. I have yet to wait for the bloody faci to accept my PP scope.. I guess i will do fine as i am doing about McDonald. Hehehe. Yeah whatever lah eh.

So anyway today my faci is not here and thus a replacement is here. She is freaking irritating and she is just making this module boring and dry. Seriously, if this were to continue, i can just fall asleep in a few minutes time. Whats worst, today i am doing biochem. Too much molecular struture about keratin and insulin. I am seriously going bonkers soon. The worksheet is not even helping me as it is freaking difficult and too irritating uh. UGH!!!

Not helping that today i am freaking tired and sleepy. My face is all gloomy and seriously i feel like crying.. I wanna go home!! Now i feel like a baby. -.- Ouh and also when i am having this kind of mood, i would prefer people not irritate me as i would be freaking out of my mind. Like seriously i could just get angry over small things. And now drinking red bull is not making any difference.. Seriously, i am not looking forward for today. Ouh God, please help me. Just make my day please..

So yeah guess i shall stop now. Take care and rock on people!

butterfly

2009-05-11T12:14:00.007+08:00

Hey there mates..
I am really missing them right now. All of them are busy with assignments, projects and even curriculum in school. I really need their magic on me. They are like McSpicy with cheese which i won't get enough of and will always love it no matter what. Hehhe. Now i am comparing my bitches with food. HAAHAHHA!! Sorry babe. But i just miss you guys.. And at the same time i really wanna eat mcspicy sey.. :(
Anyway, mood swing strikes today. It's been a long time since this thing happen and now i am seriously clueless on why i am being this way. All of a sudden i don't feel like eating and have no appetite in anything. Ugh!!! Hate it sia. Hope to change this mood swing of mine lahh.. Like seriously, for a moment i am a monkey and next i like emo-ing.. Irritating or what!
Anyway i did this in class just now. The secret behind my name..

S : You are very broad-minded.
U : You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
R : You are a social butterfly.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
Y : You cause a lot of trouble.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
H : You are not judgmental.

T : You have an attitude, a big one.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
I : You are always smiling and making others smile.
B : You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.

You are very broad-minded. You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards. You are a social butterfly. You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. You cause a lot of trouble. You are not judgmental.You have an attitude, a big one. You are always smiling and making others smile. You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.

Cool shit right.. I know... But do i cause a lot of trouble?? And WHAT!!! I have an attitude, a big one?? Wow!! Cool shit sia.. But i think i do. heheh :)
Okay i am done for now. Gonna start my PP scope. I am still not done yet and it will be due on WEDNESDAY!!! I am so dead meat.. Die sia like this.. Take care and rcok on people!!

right round

2009-05-10T23:21:00.003+08:00

Hey there mates..
I am having this major headache now and i cant take it any longer. My head is freaking spinning and seriously you spin my head right round right round. -.- Ate panadol already but still no different.. How?? I guess i had enough for now. I hate falling in love or what so ever. Getting hurt just sucks big time. I wanna take a break from life. I want to take a break from everything.. Can i?? I wanna go out, enjoy life and just be with my friends. I just want to let go all of my pain for at least a day.. Ouh fuck it.
Take care people. Rock on!

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